#and i dont even blog about spn anymore and here i am

[unrealrealms]

tw for weed across my whole blog.

i'll tag posts specifically, but i do smoke daily so bear this in mind.

dni: pronoun policers, believers in reverse racism or transandrophobia, tru/meds, anti-antis, users of the words "sysmed"/"traumascum" (youre just ableist and shitty to traumatized ppl? like sorry i was abused, cunt?), ppl who use closed culture names, ppl who use "___ bodied" terminology (you ARE white, its not just your body), and "tulpamancers"

howdy! im peter/eddie and im 21 years old, bigender, bisexual, and biracial (mestizo/white). i live with my bf of seven years, our rats, and our roommate and i may post about them occasionally.

im also professionally diagnosed with DID! i have about 25 alters (and counting, everybody On The Inside tells me its closer to 50 but i'll know it when i see it.) and most of them will not post here and if they do, likely they'll not know who's fronting enough to say exactly and it will be their best guess.

i almost exclusively use i/me pronouns even for memories that arent mine and in reference to my whole self. do not they/them me ever, if you want to refer to me on the whole, im peter. im not multiple, i am not plural, i would barely even consider myself traumagenic in the way the plural community uses it, im just a guy full of trauma and made other, worse, guys because of it.

i dont super care about endo systems but i guess you can call me anti endo or syscourse unaligned depending on whether you think "endo systems may or may not exist, i just want DIDOSDD specific spaces" is something.

an incomplete alter list:

peter: me! i basically own the body at this point and everybody identifies as me. i use him/her pronouns

gad(reel): new host, fictive of gadreel from spn. uses him/her/it/any neos. used to be host about a decade ago and isnt really connected with being a fictive anymore. definitely still an angel, though.

eddie: the nighttime alter, he's less bubbly and has court jester energy. hes also a ghost and vehement ghost-hater. he uses he/it/dae pronouns and has trouble using proper grammar, feel free to ask for clairification.

adipocere: angry but working on it. trauma holder and disliker of most things. hes also eddie's older half brother. he uses he/it pronouns.

harv/harvey: everybody's best friend and manifestation of all love shown to me. he looks and dresses like a cacophany of people who've shown me kindness, mostly family and my boyfriend. he uses he/him mostly but anything used with love and respect is fine.

[gooferdusted]

hypothetically, if I were to write a fix-it/rewrite au fic, (thinking of starting at s5 but debating starting earlier) what are some storylines you’d take out/change, characters you’d save/kill, and specifically changes to sam’s character/arcs you’d like bc i need ideas

ok. ok. I'm gonna try to not go completely off the fucking rails while I write this up but I gotchu (also these r all just my own hot n spicy takes so like. pick what u like, it's all goodie goodie)

• no time passing differently in hell. literally four months is ~Enough!~ a year is enougghh!!!!!! like I get that they wanted to make hell this horrible unreachable thing but u can still like... get that across without having it be this unfathomable chunk of time out of a persons life. like sam was down there with TWO very pissed off angel's for 180 years??? how can he still speak english??? how does dean remember ANYTHING about his old life when mentally more than half of it was spent being endlessly tortured until he finally cracked??? its just.... Too Much...

• ON that note, I feel like later on they never rlly had sam and dean bond over the fact that like... they are genuinely the ONLY two people on earth who have survived actual hell. I mean we got that one off line from dean at some point but??

• no chuck as god. just a greasy greasy rat man getting insane stories projected into his brain. and on the topic of that.... I dont like the reflection of the real life fanbase in the spn universe??? they're pulp fiction novels, it should be all like 50 year old + ladies who picked them up at the local bargain bin, not b*cky r*sen

• I like... WANNA say smth abt s4..... bc I think the way that they handled things were a little out of character BUT I also think that was lind of the point??? like the angels and demons were manipulating them to say/do things they would normally never say/do to eachother to drive a big enough wedge between then that they would eventually say yes to being the vessels. like it hurts to watch sooo much but it did drive the plot forward in a very particular way that probably couldnt have happened otherwise. that being said, when the levee breaks makes me sad, and I dont want to see sam crying for his dead mother alone in a basement! cest la vie.

• sam and dean.... are Friends...,, why did we all forget that..... watch hell house and maybe I'll calm down.....

• PSYCHIC SAM!!!!!! you all know me. you know how I feel about psychic sam... robbed. s4 finale rlly had sam like "drinking that much demon blood has truly changed me forever..... theres no going back now...... 😔😔" like ok. ok. where are your superpowers. where are they.

• I wish some of the other special children had made it out :(( I really liked andy and ava (also sam finding other friend who are like him??? queer allegory??? spare queer allegory?????)

• I also dont think the roadhouse shouldve burned down!!! that shouldve been a Staple Location like Bobby's house. same w Missouri's, literally why did we only visit her once.

• ur sending an ask to my blog so I assume this is just a given for u but!!! we're takin away the misogyny. we're takin away the fetishization! anything that would be given the greenlight by joss whedon we are putting straight in the trash. <3

• this is mostly a thing in later seasons like. idk 9-15, but no ppl knowing who the winchesters are. they are NOBODIES. they pop up like little meerkats and fuck everything up beyond repair.

• also no fancy tech. no iphone 76z or whatever the fuck. sam has an ipod 1. the wheel is so stuck he can barely press play anymore. remember when he literally just tore off the top casing off his laptop and threw it away? more of that.

• no nice clothes. NO nice clothes we fuckin hate that. everything sam and dean own was purchased pre 1995 and dean is an expert at removing blood stains and sewing up jackets. dean will walk into a laundromat with a tide pen and just start goin for it like that scene in deadpool.

• tbh.... I feel like the issues in later seasons are really this massive horrible domino effect. like I could say heres how to fix s7-10 but the fact is if shit hadnt gone down lile it had in s7 s10 would be a different story entirely.

• I am gonna do it tho bc I suck <3

• s6: soulless sam was funney but did that really go anywhere? no. tbh I dont remember what happened w cas and I'm just not going to look it up. it's just not in the cards for tonight. dean w lisa.... ehh.... I've discussed this at wayy too much length w mushroom and we both agreed that dean would probably keep hunting to keep his mind off things and to try and honor sams sacrifice. I guess theres an argument to be made for the fact that it kind of was Sam's dying wish that dean just go fin her and live a normal life but... idk. purgatory was. . indeed a Concept..... that could have maybe gone somewhere if it didnt rapidly spiral into....

• s7!!! I mean. jesus christ. I know some people like this one but jesus christ. the way they literally couldnt commit to having sam have genuine mental health problems after centuries in hell or to just magically wipe them away..... bobby dying halfway thru.... charlie was a bright spot I suppose, but her intro is not my fave episode w her.... idk what the fuck happened w cas, I guess he was god. the leviathan designs were kinda neat but like oh my fucking god it wasnt worth it.

• s8: uh. rough start. idk why the turn tables so suddenly and dean's like "why didnt u look for me >:((" bc??? yall agreed not to???? at the VERY least they couldve had sam been like "I legitimately had no reason to think u werent dead and in heaven and tha wouldve been a little rude of me to pull u out of that." but we went for ~drama~ to make it spicy I guess. ouygh. bunkers there!!! that was cool!!! MoL is a cool concept!!! altho... it doesn kinda contradict the whole sam and dean are nobodies thing... idk. trials of hell was like... cool in theory but bad in practice unless they were planning on ending the show for realskies. and they did not.

• s9: uhh... hated gadreel! hated that shit! wish they had spun that whole storyline to be more "hey sam I noticed u were s*icidal should we maybe address that??" or even like.... I mean dean probably couldve just TOLD sam abt his plan, he had already convinced him to stay alive by that point??? there was no reason to lie!!! plus the betrayal of gadreel not being who he said he was wouldve been like. literally enough drama, we didnt need to fracture the team again. and cas was??? where exactly??? be was human for at least half of that season but hey didnt know what to do w him so they chucked him in a convenience store??? good lord.

• s10: got no suggestions for that one, just toss it

• s11: ok... shes cute.... we can forgive her.... the lore is shaky at best but the episodes SLAP and the characterization is *chefs kiss*. it's been a hot minute since I've seen it so if smth sucked I dont remember and I plan to keep it that way!!!!

• s12: n.. no. no mary. no mary unless we're doing it right. and I promise u doing it right was not poorly ripping off kingsman. couldve brought back bobby!!! if they desperately wanted some drama couldve brought back john!!! actually fuck that, no way

• s13-15: no thoughts, only jack kline <3

[stainedglasscas]

4, 8, 12 & 10 for the discourse asks 💓

4) Meg!Sam or Lucifer!Sam?

Lucifer!Sam. Very compelling and heartbreaking in the sense that sam has always feared that there is something inherently evil within him and then he finds out that he is destined to be the body for the literal devil and yet he STILL fights it until he cant anymore. and also lucifer sam in the white suit was hot sorry not sorry. 

8) How should the afterlife have been “resolved”? Did the fixing of Heaven work?

okay this is a BIG question that i dont feel that i can fully address well but no i dont think the fixing of heaven really worked. i havent seen the finale so take my opinions about this with a grain of salt bc i am going off what ive read about it on here but like. sam and dean being stuck for eternity with their abusive father, their mother who they had a very complicated relationship with, without any of their other friends or loved ones (besides bobby) and never getting a chance to really live or break from their codependence just..does not seem like paradise to me. plus jack is god now and hes literally 3 which does not seem like a good thing for a variety of reasons. it could have been interesting if the way heaven was set up was framed as a bad thing within the show but its framed as a wonderful happy ending which it is not imo. 

For me the idea of heaven as it is in spn is weird cuz its basically just, a better version of your regular life (and not even THAT much better). Which sort of takes away the preciousness of being alive on Earth. I feel like heaven should, at the very least, be somewhere where you can reunite with ALL your dead loved ones, and it should be somehow different from real life in a way that makes real life significant. I dont know how exactly id set this up though, id need to think it over a lot more. 

12) Favorite season of Sam?

oh this is hard its between 2 and 4...the way sam is struggling this whole season to figure out why he is the way he is and never loses faith in good even when he loses faith in himself is just...i feel like houses of the holy is THEE thesis episode of how i feel about sam in this season. i dont know how else to put it into words. and season 4 sam is compelling becase A. bloodfreak hot demon gf time B. its about giving in to the monstrosity within yourself and hoping that some good can come out of it even if you are destroying yourself, even if you believe theres no hope for you anymore. 

10) What are your thoughts on Dean and Cas’s dynamic/its resolution?

i mean its pretty clear from my blog that i am a destiel person lmao. an angel strayig from heavens path as he falls in love with a very broken and flawed human man...that man learning to have faith agian, not in god but in that angel...literally whats not to love. that being said, it does bother me sometimes how dean treats cas. he really takes him for granted a lot of the time and i think if they were ever to get together dean should have to work on this. im sure cas also has flaws in how he treats dean but im a cas girl so i simply cant see them. (i mean lets be real, all of tfw would need months of therapy before ever being able to have a truly healthy relationship with anyone). 

 so obviously i fucking hated how they resolved their relationship. the confession was beautiful but the way they just completely ignored it, cut out a lot of deans reaction, tried to pretend it didn't happen, and also just completely cut cas out of the story after he died was not only bad writing in universe but also WILDLY homophobic oh my fucking god. it literally just does ot make sense for dean to be completely unaffected by the death of is best friend of 10+ years the way he was in the show, even if, for the sake of argument, he didnt love him back romantically. they really had 12 years of queerbating leading to the fastest bury yours gays i have ever seen. also some people think this is ridiculous but i think deans death was bury your gays. the writers knew that the only significant connection dean had besides sam was with cas and they knew if they had cas confess love they would have to address deans sexuality and feelings for cas in a whole new way and so they just killed him rather than even entertaining the possibility of him being queer. and thats fucked up

[hetheysammy]

it's about time i made a pinned about post thing!

hi im rowan, late 20s, white usamerican, bi, they/them pronouns, autistic, living on unceded Clackamas & Cowlitz land in the united states

i was first obsessed w spn in hs in like 2013 and the first season i watched live was s7, kept watching live until they killed off charlie and was like nah thats the last straw. but then they had to go and make cas canon gay for dean and now im back. just havin a laff this time around & with college degree in wgss, a much better lens of how fucked up this show is!

ive always been on my I Love Sam bullshit and even more so now... they're nonbinary ❤ and so am i so dont call me a samgirl pls! also destiel is my main shit but im here for other ships too, esp saileen & wlw

W*NCESTIES DO NOT INTERACT 🔪 get your nasty ass out of here

im not hyperfixated on spn anymore but am still semi-active on this blog as i still have some of the brainworms and i like to keep updated on the spn drama lmao

here is a directory with a bunch of links to petitions, anti-racism resources, places to donate, and more

i have a main blog at @asterlark (assorted fandom shit & textposts)

aes sideblog at @hyacintheas

not super active 1d sideblog at @neilshorans

[inacatastrophicmind]

(1) So like... I had no idea people had such strong feelings towards Supernatual (specifically later seasons) until now. I've been watching this show on and off for years now and I just recently started getting into it and in the last month I decided to check out the fandom (unfortunately I missed the massive wave of the earlier fandom) Specifically the Destiel fandom cause I suddenly latched on to it when I picked up watching the show in season 8 (I still have no idea how that happened)

(2) But it's kinda taken over my life and that's how I'm here now (btw, fucking LOVE your blog) I am sad to see that the fandom isnt at its former glory, but that is to be expected with such a long running show. ANYWAYS IM RAMBLING! What I was saying is, I've enjoyed this show from the start and even until now, I havent noticed much of a "decline" and I've never really stopped enjoying this show so I dont see why people are so hateful towards it, but, each to their own I guess.

(3) I'm sad that I just started really appreciating the show just as its dying out and ending, I wish I had been there sooner but you go back in time unfortunately. So I'm just here playing 14 years of catch up haha. I thoroughly enjoy your blog and the content you provide so thank you for that, and sorry for the massive ass ask LMAO

First of all, thank you, I’m glad you like my blog and my stuff :’)

I got into SPN and its fandom just when season 7 had just finished. I remember that from season 8 to season 10 there was so much content, there were so many people creating stuff and reblogging stuff. I even met people in my own city that watched SPN, which was amazing.

But then, the writers killed Charlie and people couldn’t take it anymore. Some people kept watching SPN during season 11, but that season was so bad that most  people didn’t care anymore about the show and started leaving the fandom. And since then, the fandom has been slowly dying. People stopped watching the show because the writing got worse, some of their favorite characters got killed for stupid reasons and/or because Destiel hasn’t become canon yet. Those are the main reasons. People got tired and frustrated, so I get why they decided to move on.

The rest of us, even if we’re frustrated with all that stuff, we still watch the show, because we like the main characters and we still love to see them. But at this point, most of us are frustrated with the writers and the direction they’ve decided to take the story. We’re mainly watching because of the characters and the cast. Because we still love them so much.

It’s sad to see that so many people has left the fandom, because I miss so many amazing and talented people. Thankfully, there are still a bunch of amazing and talented people, but there are times when this fandom feels like is dead, and I miss its past days, when you could find so much things about SPN, when every day you have tons of new content. Nowadays, it’s so hard to find new content. It also has to do with the fact that Tumblr is making bad choices that affect creators and the fact that people hit like instead of reblog, which it isn’t encouraging at all.

Still, some of us are here, and most of us have a complicated relationship with the show thanks to the poor job of the writers. But we still love the characters and the cast. Some of us still create stuff because we love making what we do, like gifs, fanart, fanfics, graphics... And there are still people who even if they don’t create anything, they reblog our stuff and spread it, and that’s amazing.

The fandom might be still dying, but the few of us that still remain despite of everything, are as active as we can. And that’s something.

[dxmagedrose]

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Tagged by: my lover @hammurabicomplex​ I’m tagging: anyone and everyone who wants to pick this one up! share with the class if you feel like it! tag me in it!!

PRESENTING. RANDOM DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO-MUN AT 2AM ;

FIRST NAME Good fucking question… It’s (sort-of) currently Dylann! I was Kieran before that, though; it’s still used as one of my first names and I’m not used to Dylann quite yet bc I’ve just started using it. 

Indigo is one of my middle names though, and I’ve used it as an online handle elsewhere forever so I use it here now!  [ Fun etymology facts: Dylan(n) is a mythology name generally meaning “born of the wave” (aspiring diver & a water witch at heart). Kieran means “little dark one” bc of my love for horror, && I chose Indigo bc as a kid to be it was neither boy (blue) or purple (girl) and was both and neither as well as my absolute favorite color as this vibrant ass mystical color. ]

STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF hmmmmm…. I’m a horror lover at heart, so as a child (I wanna say 12), I was walking through an antique store (I have a few cool finds, I considered putting my other one as the fact tbh) and I turned the corner and I saw these two dolls staring back at me at the foot of the stairs of this antique building. my blood froze, and i felt my stomach drop. i got actual, physical goosebumps stumbling across these two creepy dolls staring back at me in the corner, and i couldn’t leave the store without them. perhaps the little painted porcelain boy would be somewhat spooky by himself if it wasn’t for the terrifying lidded gaze of the porcelain girl with the hairline fractures and slightly open lips. i cant look at her. i dont really find dolls scary, I like to find the spookier ones ones, and she makes me paranoid as hell. i keep her face covered and her up in my closet except for when i bring her out to show her off proudly as the spookiest thing I have but……. i dont really collect dolls anymore.  even thinking about her brings a fearful tear to my eye.  i don’t like to think about her for very long, but that’s why I’m so fucking proud to own her. ( YES — I’m THAT white person in the horror film )

TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON hhhhh a beardy jawline, high cheekbones, crooked canine teeth >:3c

A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF b.l.t.’s with avocado. ahhhh. my mouth is watering just thinking about it, oh my god. just a bit of salt and pepper???

A FOOD YOU HATE barbecue anything, i hate the taste of bbq sauce, you keep your nasty black goo to yourselves at the grill. twice in my life i have presented with barbecue pizza and both times i cried literal tears. why would you do such a horrible thing to a person? what kind of a monster are you? how do you sleep at night?!

GUILTY PLEASURE the sims. constantly. always. i’ve sunk thousands of hours into my households. oh also uhhhhhh i run two 80s horror blogs, one being a shitpost blog with occasional art of mine and one gremlin fanfic ship blog for horrible, terrible self indulgent fanfics i’ll get the courage to finish writing & post so i can be cancelled on tumblr for at some point. NO, i won’t link them. as i pretend they’re even all that hard to find, within a day i was found on both by someone i admire here a lot :’) ilu bby thnk u eternally for supporting ur local horrifying dumbass wtf

WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN the same clothes i’ve been wearing all day usually, my sweats & long sleeve raglans or my hoodies. i like being cozy day & and out. and ugh. efoort. just throw me in a blanket in a cool room and im out.

SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS serious relationships with some openness or poly. i wish i could fling! just not exactly easy for demisexual autistics lmao.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE I think I would be adopted by my grandma as a kid. It would save me some trauma but mostly I think it would get my autism diagnosed way earlier and save me angsting all these years of wondering why & thinking it’s my fault I’m struggling so much and so loud and affectionate and different in a world that i didnt fit in the same way. 

ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON when i get drunk i text people how much they mean to me in my life. does that answer your question? ahhh. i’m sometimes a cuddle monster with friends, i message people with long texts about how much they mean to me, but I sometimes really don’t like to be touched at all. 

A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN FLYPAPER.  F L Y P A P E R.  FLYPAPER.  FLY, and, I can’t stress this enough, fucking PAPER. ( Though also Whole Nine Yards and both Re-Animator & Bride ). I have watched Flypaper already like, 5 times this week and I’m still not done, and the other movies have been on repeat for days in this household within the last year. In the past it has also been Donnie Darko & the new Nightmare on Elm Street.  roast me.

FAVORITE BOOK White Fang by Jack London. Have I actually ever finished it? No. Do I still own a copy I’ve had since childhood thru multiple dogs eating it, taking it to and from school, and highlighting and circling all the best parts of chapter one ever since I was a kid and it was too hard of a book for me to read? You bet your ass. If I ever need inspiration I just reread chapter 1. Although one of my other favorites was Broken Monsters by Lauren Beukes. But White Fang is like, a weirdly personal text. We stan London’s writing in this household.

YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE FENNEC FOX!! I used to daydream about having my own named Shiloh when I was a lil kid. they’re adorable little things and i am obsessed. i mean, gimme any fox and im happy, marble foxes, red foxes… but I was obsessed with fennec foxes. Also tbh ferrets. I want a ferret.

TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL] Rosa & @ninetyscnds‘s Luke, Rosa & @iimpulsivity is already screaming my name, Rosa & Constantine, Jesse & Andrea from Breaking Bad, and the joker and harley of 80s sci-fi Dan & Herbert from Re-Ani.  I am but a simple opossum. 

PIE OR CAKE Pie! I’ll take both pumpkin & melty apple over cake. also, cheesecake is more pie than cake soooo, pie wins.

FAVORITE SCENT my dogs / my blanket. :’)  It’s the most grounding smell in the world. 

CELEBRITY CRUSH oliver jackson-cohen, i’m fucking GAY and im angry about it. there i was, minding my own business, and i saw that asshole in a certain SHIRTLESS GIF and it AWOKE SOMETHING IN ME. dont talk to me about it, holy shit im obsessed with beardy men now god fuckkdafjaask i hate him why did he make me this gay i was perfectly fine being into girls but NOOOOOO him and his dumb hairy chest and sweet rugged face and I——  I also am obsessed with the archaeologist & television personality Josh Gates and may or may not be considering making a fan blog for him bc idk if my anthropology docuseries host is Dad or Daddy but i love him lots

IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO I would go on a dive with anthropologists and archaeologists doing fieldwork research in the ancient cenotes of the Yucatán Peninsula. My actual dream job, catch me crying & fantasizing about being underwater documenting Mayan skulls given as offerings. Fuckkkk, I love anthropology so much!!  take me anywhere in the world to immerse myself into culture & archaeology.

INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT Introvert. I have a real life friend I see roughly once a month, and that’s it. Plenty of online relationships, I’m chatty, message me all day every day. but i dont do people well.

DO YOU SCARE EASILY I used to! Really bad. I don’t as much anymore. I do get paranoia a lot still. Having therapists telling you that the FBI could be outside your house watching you through your windows will kind of nervous. ( no google results for: yes hello fbi i am a writer please dont put me on watchlists i just have research i need to do for this idea im working on, would you like to try again? ) I have nightmares nightly but not they never make me afraid, they just make me feel like crap. jumpscares and loud noises and seeing people reaching into their pockets dont set off as many brain alarms anymore tho!! progress haha.

IPHONE OR ANDROID I like my android better bc of capabilities but meh

DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES My mom, her husband & I play COD for family game night, and Silent Hill is my life’s blood. I’ve sunken hours into Sims & Skyrim, and Norman Jayden from Heavy Rain is my #1 fictional character in existence, why do i love the druggie babies

DREAM JOB Oh… You’re asking me to pick? I’d love to be an anthropologist doing work out in the field. Underwater archaeology is peak, but I’m also heavily considering being a body recovery diver or police diver. I’d love to see myself in uniform someday, if possible. Just the thought makes me teary eyed & proud.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS fund my person creative & educational endeavors. get myself a spooky ass abandoned house to make my own home to create in, and travel to the world’s best dive sites. just live a mild life of education, creation & exploration. that’s the dream TM.

FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE dr. hill is a gross and whiny lil bitch this post brought to u by the miskatonic crew, how is everyone here an even worse bad guy than herbert west precious dan excluded talk shit get hit tho john winchester from spn and both walter white & todd from breaking bad are all in my crew of hated characters. i jusT…   the reani novel is difficult to read because i have to deal with this old sack of shit.

FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER Supernatural :-)

… AND THIS CONCLUDES A DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO!! //

[supersleepygoat]

I read your negan fic and absolutley loved it! I was wondering if you could recommend anymore? But seeing as you mainly write for supernatural all good if you dont know any :)

Thank you so much, hun! I’m glad you liked my one pic and I really hope to write more of him soon. But.... ummm where shall I start?!?! Every once in a while I go on a heavy Negan kick and dive in so deep... I forget which way is up. So... here are a few stories/blogs that keep my hungry ass coming back for more. 

@sherrybaby14 - I can't even with her fics. So dark and perfect. You actually HEAR Negan in these fic... the characterization is so spot on. I think she doesn't really write for Negan anymore but hot FUCKING damn.... all of her masterlist is amazing but.... her Negan fics... keep me GOING. 

@negansaysyouearnwhatyoutake - I have recently binged on the story “the ready made family” and damn... I am usually not into fluff... but this story is just so cute, sweet, fluffy, adorable, and perfect that I couldn't stop myself. So freaking good. I love me some apocalyptic domestic bliss. 

@naughtyneganjdm - I think her name says it all. But seriously... holy shit. I lost a WHOLE WEEK of my life when I read “the Mistress” and I do not regret a single second. I would literally go to bed when it was still light out JUST BECAUSE I knew I would get lost that series and refuse to fall asleep until those two got their shit together. I cannot say enough about this series. 

@kellyn1604 has some dark and downright HOT JDM characters on her masterlist. I haven't even seen some of the movies she writes for but I will read her fics anyway because she is so good at establishing the worlds that I don’t even have to be familiar with canon to get 100% invested. That said... “Sunny Days” is a freaking awesome Negan fic that you need to read. 

@world-of-multi-imagines has a fic called “Behind Silence and Solitude” and the tags alone drew me in! So angsty. so freaking good. Nothing makes me happier than when Negan is a rude and dismissive asshole... then a jealous and possessive asshole. Sooo good. (Plus... there is a little Simon action... and I love Simon) 

Also... @pink1031 has literally one of the best SPN & Negan crossover fics I have ever read... like ever. It is called “The Rift: Daddy Issues” and it’s so fucked up but SO unbelievably perfect. 

Happy reading and I hope this helps! xo

[katymacsupernatural]

The Other Side of Reality Part 4

Dean Winchester x Reader

1200 Words

Story Summary:Y/N is a patient in an Asylum. Each and every day she noticed a handsome man sitting in the same place. Holding the same tattered book. Mumbling about ghosts, ghouls and vampires. Almost two months later, she finally gathers up the courage to go up to him. To listen to his stories. Little did she know her life would change forever as she began to wonder if there was a hint of truth to his stories.

Catch Up Here: Masterpost

The fluorescent lights ricochet off the clean white tiles. Blinking against the annoying glared, you continued down the hallway. Trying to ignore the fact that Devon followed behind you. Your fingers picking at the hem of your shirt, shaking slightly. Each footstep was a shuffle, your padded slippers sliding across the cold and unyielding tiles.

Passing the community room, you noticed the inhabitants staring your way, and you faltered for a moment, wanting to go back into your room. Back into hiding. It wasn’t a safe place. Not anymore. But you weren’t sure you could be here either.

The new medicine, your new rules had you nervous and afraid. It didn’t help that you Devon following your every movement. Devon was your constant shadow, always there when you never wanted him to be. Touching you like he had every right. Getting mad when you shrinked away from his touch.

He hadn’t wanted you to go to the library. The scowl on his face made it clear that he wasn’t happy with it. But you had wanted to see Dean. You needed to see Dean. He was the only normal thing in this place. Or at least as normal as you could get in an asylum.

“Devon!” A voice called out. The voice of the head nurse, a woman stern with a scowl in place at all times. “What are you doing?”

You stopped where you were, watching as Devon made his way to Mrs. Lynch, his scowl almost worse than hers. “I am keeping an eye on Miss Y/L/N, just as the Doctor requested.”

“It’s her free time. Let her be. There are other things that need done,” she ordered. You were grateful for her distraction, but you had a feeling you would be punished for it later on.

“Miss Y/L/N, please keep moving. Devon is otherwise occupied,” Mrs. Lynch ordered, and you scurried to obey. Leaving them behind, you raced down the hallway, running straight into the Librarian.

“Y/N! Please slow down!” She exclaimed, taking a step back. Looking up, you were ready to pass her when her eyes flashed blue.

“What the…,” you muttered, taking another step back, your eyes wide, your heart racing. Quickly her eyes turned back to their normal brown, a frown pulling at the laugh lines on her face.

“Y/N, is everything okay? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

“I...I think….I’m just going to...to...find Dean,” you stuttered, racing past her to your usual corner of the library. Wondering if you had actually seen her eyes flash a brilliant shade of blue, or if it was your medicine making you imagine things. Because there was no way a person’s eyes could literally glow like that.

You could see Dean sitting in his usual seat, his journal clutched tight to his chest. His eyes seemed vacant, his entire body rocking slightly back and forth. Your slippered foot making no sound on the carpet floor, you were almost to him when a switch seemed to be flipped inside your mind.

Voices, loud voices echoed through your head, almost as if a radio had been turned on inside your brain. Never making any sense, talking in a language sounding ancient and almost alien. It was the loudest it had ever been, so overpowering you felt yourself falling to your knees.

“Y/N!” Dean called out, dropping his book as you pressed your hands to your temples, trying to block the loud voices. Hands reached up, grasping your shoulders, but you shook them away. The touch was too much with the voices screaming inside your head, and you knew you would do anything to make them stop.

“Please!! Make them stop!” You screamed, your hands tightening against your head, pulling at your hair. Never even noticing the pain as you tried to ease the pressure in your head.

“Breathe. Just breathe,” Dean kept saying over and over, his voice calm. It was the calmness, the even tone of it that had the voices silencing as you realized something didn’t quite right.

The voices faded away as quickly as they started, a giant relief as your head finally quieted. Taking a deep breath, your hands shaking, you reached for the hem of your shirt, picking once again at the loose thread.

“Are you alright?”

“The voices, they’ve changed. Becoming louder, speaking like the people in my nightmare. Dean, what if it’s true? What if I am completely crazy?”

“You aren’t,” he answered, his eyes fluttering back and forth. “This place, there’s something wrong with it. You and I, we aren’t crazy. That’s why they keep changing our medication.”

Calming down long enough, you could see that Dean was in a frantic state, his breaths coming fast, his pupils dilated. He kept licking his bottom lip as he stared your way. “Dean, did they change your medication?”

“They wanted me to forget about Sammy,” he exclaimed, holding tight onto his journal, looking over your head. No doubt making sure there weren’t nurses to overhear. “They gave me more medicine. Telling me that it would make the pain manageable. But my hands don’t hurt! The burns don’t hurt anymore. Just my heart! I miss my brother and my best friend. Why couldn’t I save them?”

It was your turn to comfort Dean, much like he had you. Resting your hands on top of his, you made sure he was looking your way. “Dean, you did everything you could. I know you did. It wasn’t your fault.”

“But it was my fault!” He argued, straightening up, almost knocking you to the floor. “I was supposed to look after Sam. My Dad always said that was my job, and I screwed it up! Now I’m locked in here, and they’re trying to stop me from remembering!”

He stood, reaching down and grasping your hand. Pulling you tight against him, almost embracing you as he made sure you were alone. You tried ignoring the feel of his strong arms around you, the rushed beating of his heart against your cheek. You wanted nothing more than to lean into his touch, forgetting everything that was going on. But you couldn’t. “They’re watching Y/N. Always watching. They don’t like us being together.”

“The nurses?”

He nodded. “Especially Devon. Be wary of him. I’m going to try to stop taking my medicine. I suggest you do the same. I need to remember. I need to remember Sammy.”

“But the voices,” you tried arguing, stopping as Dean’s arms tightened around you.

“The voices are a clue! Don’t shut them out! Welcome them. Learn from them,” Dean insisted, just a familiar voice that sent shivers of fear down your back echoed through the library.

“Dean, I’ve got to go. If he sees us…,”

“Go,” Dean whispered, surprising you when he pressed a kiss to your head. “Be safe. And don’t forget.”

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[georgialouisea]

Under the Christmas Lights

Characters - Dean x Reader, Sam. Word Count - 945 Warnings -  Fluff. A/N -  Written for @thing-you-do-with-that-thing and @like-a-bag-of-potatoes ' 12 Days of Christmas Challenge. Prompt is Christmas lights. All feedback is appreciated.

Dean drove into the city towards the motel you were all staying at. Resting your head against the window you watched the world go by, as Dean pulled to a stop at a red light you saw the tents and stalls of a small Christmas market.

“Guys… tonight can we go to the Christmas market?”

“No.” Dean snapped.

“Why not?”

“Because It will be busy and I just don’t want to.”

“I’ll go with you Y/N.” Sam offered smiling back at you.

“At least one of you is nice.”

“Whatever.” Dean sighed.

The day dragged on, the interviews, the research, everything was taking forever. By 2pm you were already annoyed and done with the day. Flopping down on the motel bed you threw your arm over your eyes.

“I need a drink.” You sighed.

“Same.” Dean dropped into the chair across the room.

“How much more do we need to do today?”

“A lot, we don’t even know what we’re hunting.” Sam ran a hand down his face as he sat on the edge of the free bed.

“Can I make a suggestion?”

“Shoot.” Dean raised a brow at you.

“Well one I want a drink, two I want to go to the Christmas market and I’m in no mood to read anymore.”

“There’s people dying and you want a night off?”

“The thing is killing on a cycle of once a week on a wednesday night, today is Thursday.”

“She’s right.” Sam shrugged.

“I always am, plus it hunts in crowded areas.” You smiled.

“Stop with the damn Christmas market.”

“Nope.”

“You’re seriously abandoning the case?”

“No, I’m taking the afternoon off, someone died yesterday, we have 6 days and no leads, we’re only going to end up in a bar tonight anyway.”

“I kind of agree,: Sam shrugged. “We can have some time off and enjoy, then hit it hard tomorrow with a fresh perspective.”

“Dean we haven’t taken time off in months.” You looked at him waiting for his next issue.

“We have.”

“When?”

“We took the day off and went to the beach.” Dean furrowed his brow at you.

“Dean we haven’t seen a coast in 3 months.”

“What?”

“Yeah.” Sam nodded.

“So … evening off?” You looked at them.

“Yeah, evening off.” Dean nodded.

The afternoon was full of being normal, living a normal life, you all had dinner, a few drinks then headed to the Christmas market, much to Dean’s dismay. Yet after a little whiskey, he was fine with following you and Sam around from stall to stall.

As the sunlight faded the Christmas lights illuminated the streets, Dean hung back slightly behind you and Sam, you were oblivious to his gaze as you pulled Sam over to a stall with Christmas decorations on.

“We don’t even have a tree why do we need decorations?” Dean asked as he appeared next to you and Sam.

“Can we get a tree?”

“What?”

“Basically can we do Christmas this year?” You asked glancing between them.

“It’s fine with me.” Sam shrugged before pulling you to his side, his arm draped around your shoulder.

“Yeah.” Dean agreed.

“You’re serious?”

“Yeah.” Dean smiled at you, Sam’s arm dropped from your shoulder.

“Thank you!” You squealed grabbing Dean’s face kissing his lips before pulling away and hugging Sam. “Okay well, I’m getting a drink you guys want anything?”

“Erm … no … I…” Dean stammered.

“No, we’re good.” Sam formed a real sentence.

Walking away from them and towards the drinks stalls you realised what you’d done, you’d just kissed Dean. Months maybe even years of secret feelings had just been revealed.

Shit.

“You saw that right? She just kissed me.”

“Yeah, she did.”

“What?”

“Dude, I told you she likes you, do something about it.”

“You’re sure?”

“Dean she just kissed you.”

“Okay.”

Turning away from the drink stand you walked towards the centre if the square, the open space was lined with lights on each side, they all joined above the centre of the small square making a beautiful frame for the square. Circling to where you had left Sam and Dean you noticed Sam walking towards you.

“Hey, give me your drink a sec.”

“What?”

“Just do it.”

“Fine, here.” You gave it to him, your hands turning up waiting for whatever he was doing.

Turning around you saw Dean walking towards the two of you, his eyes only on you, he stopped under the lights before you.

“What?” You questioned.

“I love you.” He spoke as he stepped towards you, his arms wrapping around your waist pulling you closer to him.

“You love me?”

“Y/N, I’m so in love with you it hurts.”

“Really?”

“Yes.”

“Dean, I love you too.” You grinned up at him.

“You do?”

“Yes, God yes.” You whispered pulling him towards you kissing him for the 2nd time that night.

Your hand ran through his hair as he pulled you flush against him.

Sam clearing his throat made you pull away from Dean.

“Sorry.” You spoke glancing at Sam before smiling up at Dean.

“Here’s your drink back and I may have a few photos of you two I know you’ll love.” Sam winked at you. “I’m guessing you’re sharing with Dean tonight?”

“Maybe.” You smiled looking up at the lights above you. As if on cue your phone started to buzz as a stream of photos of you and Dean under the lights began to fill your screen.

“What?” Sam shrugged. “You two looked adorable.”

“Hell yeah, we did,” Dean smirked kissing your temple, his hand taking yours in his as you both continued down the road, the lights illuminating your way.

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[permanentmochakisses]

tagged by @cosyserendipity  💜

1. Why did you choose your url?

actual explanation HERE 

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them name them and why you have them?

@bbcmerlindaily  @futureofalbion @justmerlin @justarthur @bradleycolingifs

i have them because i was and still am literally in love with bbc merlin :’)))

3. How long have you’ve been on tumblr?

since november 2010 so almost 11 years!

4. Do you have a queue tag?

nope just boring old “queue” i love reading people’s creative queue tags though! 

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

lmao @starsandstairs literally made me make one. IRONY ALERT. she’s never on here anymore HA. ANOTHER IRONY ALERT. she was also the one who got me into bts!

6. Why did you choose your icon?

because JIMIN’S SIDE PROFILE AND LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM IS THE MOST STUNNING THING IN EXISTENCE. 

7. Why did you choose your header?

because JIKOOK MARRIED. JIKOOK HUSBANDS. JIKOOK BOYFRIENDS. JIKOOK IN LOVE. JIKOOK EACH OTHER’S FOREVER PERSON. 

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

THIS ONE. lmao of course it’d be spn related and something i stopped loving years ago.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

where can you even see how many mutuals you have? i only follow 85 people and over half of them are sideblogs so i dont think i have that many dfhasjfdfas

10. How many followers do you have?

i stopped looking at my followers a LONG time ago because i literally lost thousands of them when i became a bts fan over 3 years ago. and then i stopped making content heh. but looking at it now, its saying 5,217. so i guess im still slowly trucking along lmao.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

i honestly cannot remember but probably!

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

a lot. besides twitter, tumblr is the only other social media im constantly on so i check them both quite often.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

yes. i’ve had a ton of bbc merlin discourse on my blog when the show was on. also stuff about important social issues. i cant remember if anyone really felt like they won anything ha. 

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

if it’s an important issue and it’s fact-checked it then i think they’re important to reblog

16. Do you like tag games?

sure! i just rarely have the time to indulge in them. 😞

17. Do you like ask games?

same as answer above!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@merlinsprat who i believe has over 20k followers now. is that right, alex??

19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?

nope. but you are all very amazing and beautiful!!!!!

20. Tags?

 i shall tag: @sensiblethingtodo @poemforthesmallthings @lauradonnelly @sirmorgan @merlinsprat @likemusiceveryline @wouldicatchyoudreaming @strictlybecca ONLY IF YOU ALL WANT TO :’) 

[elvesofnoldor]

So i legit reblogged 12 pages of star wars (well mostly tfa and rogue one) content on my blog in the last two weeks or so, while I have reblogged only 17 pages in an entire year lol--most of them happened within 3 months around the time tfa came out. I didn’t even have ANY star wars content before (epi 7) tfa’s trailer came out (that was 2015, two years ago). 

Even though by comparison, I got tens and thousands of spn content on my blog, there is still a bit more sw posts on my blog than usual, obviously. It does seem like ppl r unfollowing me because of that (not complaining, just observing lol). I didn’t count the number but I’ve got to lost at least 100 followers in the last 1-2 weeks, and didn’t gain nearly enough to hide this drop. 

I notice that all the mutuals I’ve been following r slowly hopping off the spn boat , or becoming inactive--kind of like me for months now (my” last 3 days” note counts went below 100 from 2k since the beginning of 2016, and it only went back to 1k couple of days ago bc i have been way more active than usual). So since I haven’t been a little shit lately--actually i barely talk anymore, I can only deduce that the recent drop is mainly caused by 

A. ppl deleting their blogs, ditching spn altogether and thinking i reblog too much spn for them, and 

B. people feeling that I don’t reblog nearly enough spn content for them. 

Here’s the thing, man, I don’t like losing followers lol, esp since I have gained thousands of them over the past 3 years, most of them came from the first 2 years. i know me losing followers right now is mainly caused by me having trouble figuring this blog out atm, but um, the recent dip tells me that i gotta figure my blog out soon lol. I changed my mobile blog pic--it’s a fanart of Charlie (beloved canon lesbian character in supernatural), wearing a jacket (A Gay Thing), with “Star Wars” written in Chinese on her shirt. Keywords: wlw, gay aesthetic, supernatural, star wars, Chinese, and I think these keywords really sum up my blog and esp the current state of my blog and who i am as a person kinda nicely. Lmao. I also changed my update bar and my about pages a little bit, and I’m currently trying to make a new tags page to better reflect current state of my blog, and um, I don’t actually want my content to be all over the place. 

Now, in regards to lack of spn content, I can technically follow more spn blogs to have more spn content on my dash, but um, frankly I dont wanna lol. The amount of spn I have on my blog on a regular basis is the maximum I can allow. Maybe I will generate some spn related content soon....idk....when the season comes back i guess. I have a few gifs and graphic ideas that I need to do anyways. Obviously I can’t and don’t want to have too much spn content on my blog anyways, so, lol. The other other thing is, I’m not sure i’m gonna be in the star wars fandom yet, as matter of fact, I have been trying to find a new fandom to be in since the beginning of 2016 and have failed to do that this whole time. Star Wars series is probably the closest thing to a new fandom to me--Steven Universe being the 2nd closest lol. I’ve got a new ship to be invested in (yet another non-canon gay ship smh), but most importantly a new character to be invested in (not a female character or--i hate to admit it--canonically lgbt, but he’s at least a character of color). However, I know i’m definitely not in the sw fandom right now since I haven’t even generated ANY sw related content (I HAVE IDEAS THOUGH). i just couldn’t stfu in the tags, and I don’t know any sw bloggers either. Also, I really need to re-watch original series and prequels and extended universe content (like the tv series that’s going on right now), and to get myself familiar with all these and maybe fall in love with these, before I can actually be in the fandom ok. Yet I’m more interested in reading the Poe Dameron comic right now than re-watching the prequels and original series again, since I’m more invested in SW franchise’s future, than...its past. 

i’ve never actually jump dramatically from fandoms to fandom before, it’s always been supernatural for me, so I have no idea what to do to actually feel free to put content I’m passionate about on my blog but doesn’t lose too much followers at the same time. (I tried my hardest not to spam people with star wars content by liking these posts first and storing them in my likes as long as possible, and it’s a really tiring process to look for posts in my likes ALL THE TIME, ok, lol, I don’t wanna do that forever ok!! lol!!) As a wlw person of color who’s less and less interested in the spn’s general vibe of...idk....White Americana (with its US centric narrative, sea of white American faces and imagery etc), and more and more disappointed with its continuous and seemingly permanent lack of poc and lgbt characters, I’m losing hope and interest in this show and its characters and even my OTP.  Idk what to do with my blog bc of my increased loss of interest in spn tbh, maybe I should just make a star war sideblog? Last time I made a sideblog, I neglect it for 6 months and I’m still neglecting it lol. So starting anew on tumblr doesnt seem to be what i’m good at. At this point, i’m rly hoping to weed out the ones that switched out of spn fandom completely and the spn bloggers that are unsatisfied with the amount of spn content on my blog, while getting more multifandom blogs to follow me by um...generating multifandom content. Maybe instead of refreshing my dash over and over again, I should just use my drawing pad again, or use my photoshop to make a graphic or edit again, or write a fic make some headcanons, or not procrastinate and finalize my grad school applications and prepare for the next semester. 

[scarecrowshindig]

tagged by @rindemption Thanks for that!

1. Why did you choose your URL?

I’m a big fan of halloween and autumn aesthetics and scarecrows and I like the idea of multiple scarecrows having a party like out in a cornfield or something

2. Any side blogs?

just my cp2077 sideblog. i used to have a nsft sideblog where i’d reblog, you guessed it, nsft posts and post some dick art i made but i abandoned that awhile ago

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

i think it’s only been 5-6 years

4. Do you have a queue tag?

I used to but not anymore it’s too much effort 

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

don’t @ me but i was briefly apart of the spn fandom and that’s why i started my first blog. that was another account, this one is just because and for anything

6. Why did you choose your icon or pfp?

it’s mortan harket from aha and he’s super hot

7. Why did you choose your header?

i really just love the whole.... thing... randy savage had going on so... what’s not to like?

8. What is your post with the most popular notes?

on this blog it’s my zelda forgotten temple guardian parry trick shot video, but i did make a post where i edited in the sad spongebob music over anakin skywalker looking very sad and that has 100k notes last time i saw it. 

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i just counted and i have 32 mutuals. wow. love yall lol

10. How many followers do you have?

here, it’s less than 100 (this is a new blog and not really focused on anything) but on my cp2077 sideblog i have like 240 i think

11. How many people do you follow?

208. I try to keep it under 300.

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

Now see when you ask it like that I’m not entirely sure I know what a shit post is exactly anymore

13. How often do you use tumblr every day?

i like how this question just answers itself right there at the end lmaoo but yeah after work i get on and browse a bit before playing a game or watching a stream or something

14. Have you ever had a fight with another blog once?

nope. there are certainly bloggers i hate seeing but i’ve never had any kind of altercation with anyone. 

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog” posts?

now is this about needing to reblog like current event things or is this about needing to reblog art? 

the “this bad thing isn’t being talked about so you need to reblog this post” stuff annoys me because like most of the time i am completely unaware and i dont even come here for news. i come here as an escape of sorts from the bad shit going on. 

the “you need to reblog art you like” i agree with. wholeheartedly. as an artist that has art where i’ve gotten 10 notes on a piece and only maybe 2 of those are reblogs (one was a self reblog lmaooo) please reblog art you like. 

16. Do you like tag games?

i do. i appreciate that someone thought of me and i get to talk about myself which, you know, people love to do. despite saying they don’t, they do. 

17. Do you like ask games?

sure! never get asks tho so lmaoo

18. Which of your mututals do you think is tumblr famous?

maybe 1 or 2

19. Do you have a crush on a tumblr mutual?

no, but there are a few i’d love to be friends/closer friends with and chat on the daily. 

im tagging @cryptidcola @lucretia-waits @hyperionheresy @alexredgrave @duranderonamous @shadowhrts @justawholebunchofcows and anyone else who’d like to do this. you can even tag me that i tagged you i don’t mind. 

[adrienagrestte]

also am i glad i don’t have a tv fandom blog only cuz im about to be brutally honest with some opinions that would get me skewered in the tags here lol: - betty in river dale is literally the worst because she’s such an unlikable mary sue. in the comics she has way more depth and whatnot in the show she’s this ~uwu not like other girls secret dark side soo cute~ girl - i have started to dislike ber/onica more because of betty like i still love veronica to death but betty is just. so unlikable nowadays god. she was a lot more bearable in the first few episodes. anyways im onboard with archie/ veronica or veronica/ cheryl now i think. like be/r/onica would be ok if they fixed up literally everything about betty - similarly, bug / head is awful, i’ve said this before - dean is a horrible big brother and the show constantly abuses and crucifies sam while glorifying dean. like even when dean does horrible shit they brush it off after a season but nah not sam. basically i hate dean sorry - de/s/tiel is okay and whatever but the fandom is the worst and i’m not gonna lie here i really don’t think they’re really baiting it, at least not in the show itself, idk maybe in interviews they are i don’t watch those but in actual canon? i don’t really see it - similarly with s/t/erek from tw like im SOrry they have no basis for a relationship At All and it would actually be a fairly unhealthy one given the way that derek treats stiles ???? both sciles and stydia have believable bases and make way more sense and would actually be healthy. also stiles is supposed to be like 18 and was probably 16-17 at the start of the show and derek is 24/25 so no Thank You - honestly river dale has become so shitty i don’t even wanna watch the episodes anymore because they’re ruining everything i liked about jughead by sticking him in this disgusting soul sucking relationship - why did they get rid of cat grant on supergirl im just still upset about this cuz i liked her way more than any of the new characters

anyways yeah ik many ppl dont even follow me for this stuff and at least with spn its a show that i hate-watch only for sam anyways but i need to vent a bit

[danielradcliff]

(a daydream spills from my corked head).

[queen-of-deans-booty]

Distracting The Mind

Characters: Dean x Reader, Sam

Word Count: 786

Warnings: Fluff, wisdom teeth pain, implied smut at the end

Request: Hey Jordan i just removed my wisdom teeth, and a oneshot/drabble came on my mind. What about a DeanxReader (boyfriend and girlfriend) where she got her wisdom tooth removed so she can’t eat anything and Dean hits her with a “Well, I still can eat you” in a flirty, kind of smutty way? Not smut at all, i know you don’t feel comfortable writing it, I’m just asking for some implied smut lol!

Summary: You got your wisdom teeth taken out and all you can do is focus on the pain. Can Dean help you take your mind off it?

Author’s Note: I hope you like this! This is unbeta’d and any and all mistakes are mine.

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“I am in so much pain!!” You moaned, wincing at the throbbing mess inside your mouth. You recently got your wisdom teeth removed and even though you didn’t feel it for a few hours afterward, the medicine wore off and now you’re in so much pain. The only thing you can really eat is either applesauce, ice cream, soup and other liquid things. It was painful for you to watch Dean and Sam eat full meals while you had to drink your soup.

It wasn’t fair but you had to wait at least a full week before you could eat anything crunchy or spicy. And another week before you could eat what Dean eats. It’ll take time to heal but you were growing rather impatient because all you wanted is to eat like a normal person without the pain reminding you that you can’t.

“I know but just think of all the foods you can eat when you get better,” Dean said, kissing your cheek before making your soup for you.

“I hate you both.” You grumbled, wincing at the pain once more.

“I can go get some ibuprofen if you would like. Or maybe we can flush your gums with salt water.” Sam snickered at the end.

“Don’t think I won’t still kick your ass.” You glared at him. Sam just smiled and ate his rabbit food. Dean finished with your soup and brought you your food before sitting down and eating his.

“Come on, it isn’t so bad,” Dean said, trying to make you feel better.

“Not bad? Have you ever gotten your wisdom teeth taken out? No, it hurts. My whole jaw hurts and I can’t eat anything.” You got tears because you were so frustrated about this whole thing.

“Hey, don’t cry. Hey, come on, Sam will get you pain medication. We were just playing around.” Dean apologized, giving Sam the dirty look. Sam nodded in agreement and got up, rummaging through the medicine cabinet and handing over the ibuprofen. You tossed back two pills before slowly eating your soup.

“It just really hurts.” You sniffled and sighed. You didn’t care for soup anymore and pushed the bowl away.

“I know, I’m sorry.” Dean sighed.

“I think I’m going to try and get some sleep. Maybe it will take my mind off the pain.” You sighed and got up, leaving the kitchen. Dean watched you go with a frown but thought of something that might cheer you up. He would wait until tonight after Sam has gone to bed.

Later that night, you could barely sleep, the throbbing pain keeping you awake. You were lying in bed, alone, until the door opened and Dean walked in.

“How are you feeling?” He asked, closing the door.

“Not good. Can’t sleep.” You sighed and watched him take off his clothes, changing into only his pajama pants.

“I think I know of a way to get your mind off the pain,” Dean said, walking over to the bed.

“Yeah? How?” Dean crawled on the bed and up your body until his face was near yours. The atmosphere in the room changed and you could feel the heat coming from his body. It was very distracting, having his bare chest so close to you. Your eyes lingered on his soft, yet defining stomach before moving them slowly up his chest until they landed on his darkening eyes.

“You might not be able to eat but I can.” He said, leaning his head down and placing his lips on your neck. He left little kisses here and there, enough to make you want more but not enough to satisfy you.

“What does that mean?” You asked, knowing what it meant but wanting to hear him say it.

“I can still eat you.” He whispered into your ear, nipping at your earlobe. You bit your lip and closed your eyes, your mind already focusing on something else besides the pain. It was still there but you barely felt it.

“You think that will keep my mind off the pain?” You whispered back. He just chuckled and slid his hands under your shirt. His fingers traced your skin as they moved upwards, bringing the shirt with him. He took it off your body, glad you weren’t wearing a bra.

“Oh, I know it will.” He smirked and kissed the top of your chest before moving south.

“Care to prove it?” You asked, loving where this was going.

“Oh, I’ll prove it alright. Multiple times.” He chuckled and slid your pajamas shorts and panties off your body, leaving you naked. He hooked your legs over his shoulders and got to work, effectively taking your mind off the pain.

The Queens:

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The Dean Beans:

@akshi8278 @mega-mrs-dean-winchester @winchesterandpie @spn-dean-and-sam-winchester @carribear31 @dont-you-dare-say-misha @oreosatmidnight @not-naturalfangirl @iam-a-cutiepie @kristendanwayne @milo-winchester-4ever @jensenackesl @codyshany316 @helllonearth @juniorhuntersam @pouterpufftrain @ruprecht0420 @carriemichelle2012 @sandlee44 @gucci-daddario @kukindukin @starry-chaos @05spn18 @my-wayward-heroes @baconlover001 @supernatural-teamfreewillpage @onlydeanandjensen @expectosel